|Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow.
|Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty.
|Your friend is that man who knows all about you, and still
|You can always tell a real friend; when you've made a fool of
yourself he doesn't feel you've done a permanent job.
(Laurence J. Peter)
|Friends are family you choose for yourself.|
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4th January, 2006
It seems that the struggle has ended. I got sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I finally accepted that all that happens is my own doing. And, that all the struggle is in my mind. I feel no need to repeat the cycle forever again. Let it end now.
Yesterday, I exclaimed to Luke "It is all in my mind!". We both nodded our heads vigorously, in agreement. Yes, the source of all our misery is on our own heads. And, I am glad to know that!
My cooked food temptations flew out the window.
10th January, 2006
Going through detox. I feel tired, my throat is sore, and I got a yeast infection (?!). Blah. I would love to curl up in my bed and sleep, but I can't. There is work to do. I will take leave in a couple of weeks, but then, I will be busy moving to the new house. I dream of holidays!
Licking spoons when cooking is no good. One tablespoon can easily lead to the second, third, and ... For this reason, I decided not to do this anymore. Another reason is that I decided to cut salt from my diet completely. I have celery sticks instead. Avocadoes taste salty to me too.
My first year of raw was an easy-peasy year. 2005 was a year of struggle, and a year of staying in limbo (ever since that 2004 Christmas!). Now, I am really determined to move forward.
16th January, 2006
On Saturday, I woke up feeling totally awful and hardly able to speak. That's it, I thought, I've had enough. I decided to take drastic measures, that is apply my fail-proof healing strategy. What is it? Simple, stay in bed, cover well and sweat! It was a bit difficult to do it, having children around, but I managed to do it for a couple of hours. (If I could spend a whole day in bed, I would recover the next day, as I've done many times before). I did it again in the evening, and then a little bit more on Sunday. I noticed an improvement, after each time. I am definitely on the road to recovery.
19th January, 2006
I am still coughing, but gradually feelling better. I guess I am paying for all my relapses. Last time I was sick like this, was years ago. Well, let's not call it "sick". It is a detox, clearly.
Yesterday, I had a salad made from home-growns greens. Very nutricious, and organic, of course! I am looking forward to growing our own fruit too.
My recent eating patter:
* only fruit (mono) throughout the day
* green (low-fat) salad in the evening.
There is one missing ingredient here: exercise. I admit it, I've been not doing anything for too long now (not counting occasional biking). I really must do something about it. I am taking leave very soon, and my plan is to establish some exercise patterns duirng my holidays. Proper diet alone is really not enough.