17th December, 2008
Sharing my thoughts:

Instincts is something beyond the mind, so to rely on those is to go beyond the intellectual thinking. It is actually quite simple. Hunger, which is felt in the throat (not in the tummy), a bit deeper than the thirst, is one good indicator. For example, after eating sweet fruit only for a while, suddenly, at the moment of hunger, I find myself wanting to chew on something green, the sight of greens is suddenly very appealing, and when I see them I think of them being in my mouth, visualize me chewing them, I may even salivate at the thought of this, and this is a sure sign for me that this is what my body wants. So I go for the greens. Then, the next time I am hungry, I completely lose interest in the greens, and dream of some juicy hydrating fruit. For example, I go to the shop and amongst the array of fruit I see a red watermelon. My eyes fixate on it and start drooling. All I want is the watermelon. And so this is how it goes again.

As far as cooked food craving, junk food cravings, these are completely mental things. My body does not want them, it may be my mind that for whatever reasons (past habits, stress) fixates on them if I let it focus on them. However, the taste test comes negative. The pizza, for example, tastes in my mouth like a rubbery salty substance burning my mouth. If not convinced and I go further and eat it, then more negative reactions will follow, massive dehydration in particular. I no longer crave such foods, because, after many experiences, I am able to connect with my instincts and distinguish between the true hunger and the mental desires. Emotional eating has been one of the last issues for me to tackle in my journey. I won't claim that I have completely conquered all my demons, cause I can't tell what will ever happen, of course. Nevertheless. fulfilling the needs of my soul has helped me tremendously in staying raw becoming more natural and effortless than ever before.

I let my body drive me, my hunger in my throat, my jaw chooses my foods. I wait till I am really hungry, which means that my jaw is really keen on having some food inside, and I am really interested in some chewing. I often go for the water first, to make sure that I am really hungry (and not just thirsty). This prevents overeating, my mind tells me. If I put some foods in my mouth and they taste bitter or not quite right, I won't have them. If something tastes really good, I will have it. Often, I will taste some foods just to see whether they taste good or not. My mind tells me that it is good to experiment like this with different foods, to have access to a wide variety of them, so as to get all the nutrients that my body might need.

I believe we all have the natural ability to guide us effortlessly. The trick is to let go of the preconceived ideas, past patterns, which can actually be quite a liberating experience. No longer a newbie, but a guru, my own. Empowering experience, for sure.


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